The Gospel Changes Lives - Pt. 2

Yesterday, I offered the Gospel to you. The hope in Christ we have. 

Today I give you my testimony. I wouldn't be a witness if I never had one....so here goes.

I am 28 now with a wonderful husband of almost 2 years (4 weeks to go), and a  beautiful 7 month old daughter, whom I love both very much. I have such great friends, with big hearts and who love and care for me. I no longer hoard bitterness, I am saved and in my right mind. I am not writing all this because I am prideful, but I  do so to give God the glory for all my blessings.

Six and half years ago my story/life read very differently. Know one could know it. My hope was in my success. More accurately, if I became successful by my standards then I believed all would be well. But I couldn't fulfill those goals, because I wasn't perfect. In addition, I had little respect for a lot of men. They took interest in me but I took interest in breaking, even the most, sincere hearts without disrespecting myself.

At the age of 17 I had attempted to take my own life. I felt as thought I wasn't loved. Everyone seemed mad at me. Somewhere in my mind I believed that if you were angry with me, you didnt love me. I now now this is not the case. But this was just the icing. The underlying issue I had, which hurt so bad was that of being bullied in school. I never knew why I was the favored candidate, but I was for 2 years. This confused me. 

Altogether, growing up I made some very bad decisions. REMEMBER, I am not glorifying my past life, it just is what it was.

I come from a family that would do anything for each other. I have siblings whom I love so dearly, and vice versa. I was an excellent student with good grades which hardly reflected my inner situation. I had become a very cold person inside. My friends wouldn't know at the time. I made a great friend to anyone yet I wouldn't let anyone get close to me. I was very lonely.

After graduating high school (USA) /6th form (U.K), my aim was to strive to get my degree, get a great job, earn enough to have my own business, get married and have 3 children before I reached 32 years of age. Ambition is fine, there is nothing wrong with it, but my attitude, mindset, drive and heart was totally messed up. I wanted these for two reasons:

1. To show everyone that ever hurt me, that despite the pain they caused, I still made it
2. To be happy

In early 2005, after trying to be the best person I could be and going to church here and there, I found mysef in a desperate situation. I made a promise to God. Yes, the same promise, I am sure, we've all made at least once in our lives. I promised God that if He could get me out of this one situation I found myself in, I would serve Him until I died. In all honesty, I really didn't realize what I was saying and who I was taking to. I mean, if I knew God then I would have known that He is all-powerful beyond my understanding. Nonetheless, I prayed that prayer on Thursday, January 6th 2005. Within 6 hours I had my answer. I was so relieved. I was so happy and elated beyond belief. 

Following that, I prayed the prayer of repentance. I knew if I was to serve God, I would have to turn away from everything I knew to wrong and against God. I had previously read my bible a few times, but I guess I had temporary amnesia. I never really relied on God's strength or had faith in Him to get me through, but my own. 

Romans 10:9-10 reads " ....if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believed into righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made into salvation." 

I said these words and believed them. I stepped into God's will for my life, because my will was ruining me.

I am 28, married, happy with child, saved and in my right mind. I have forgiven everyone that I felt hurt by. This new life cannot compare to my old life. I've been restored and redeemed. 

2nd Corinthians 5:17 reads "Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, old things have passed away. Behold all things have become new"

This new person I am, this new life I lead is really the FIRST BEST DECISION I made.

Given my testimony, He has washed away my sins and before God I am blood washed, and no longer seperated from Him. You too can be born again and you can make heaven your home. 

John 3:3 reads  "Jesus said, I tell you the truth, unless one is born again he cannot be in Gods kingdom"

And that is the good news of the Gospel